1. Contacted my ex who I'm still madly in love with and who admitted to not loving me.

2. Having hope that somehow it will work out this time.

I'd say that goes far beyond stupid. It's mentally deficient. It's moronic. It's feeble-minded. But I'm happy for the first time in a long time. I know he doesn't love me. He probably never will, or at least not the way I want him to. Perhaps someday I'll recover from this prolonged (i.e. almost 4-year-long) lapse in judgment, but until then I'm going to have a good time.

Pray for me. =/